Told my mother about the Emerald Version thingy.
She told me off just like that. Had a little arguement.

I was not pissed off at all in the first place. I tried to understand. Until she said, " I have provided you your daily meals,what else more you trying to expect? ".

That gave me a definition, is she saying that providing me meals is not her job at all?
I know I have not been working. But I already said I will work. My school projects are piling up. All she know is saying how much she have suffer in my last time working place. She was the one that said she wanted to work in my working place. Now she's complaining? If she can't take the work there, must as well quit. I already told her in the first place. It will be tough, she does not believed me at all. Saying that she will sure be able to handle all the work. Now the orders there are piling up and she nags at me everyday. Saying I am so relaxing at home. During holidays I did go back to school alright. Did I say I enjoyed my holiday? No! Nowadays I've realised that my memory are getting worsen.

Saying that what else more I am trying to expect from her hurts me alot. She does not understand me.

I have already tried settling all my meals outside without asking her for money whenever I go out. But when my money is going dry, she will say that I spend so much and I don't know how to think. I kept it to myself and tried to settle myself if she can't gave much. Seriously, being the only son is advantage in having one thing by yourself but the disadvantage is that I always being told off for don't know how to think. I have proved to her that I know how to think by getting all the scholarships I can get in my secondary schools and ITE. This is also a way whereby I can cut down the spending of money.

The conclusion is that she will say that she did not expect any cent from me and how noble that is. Do you know when you say that, it's like I am owing you a living and I got to pay you when I am staying in your flat. She will say how shity it is to handle our family income. She said she will throw to me once I've joined the workforce.

I dare to say, my friends understand me more than my parents.
She always thought that I am happy. But when I am not, I just kept it from her as I don't want her to worry. Right now I am in my room. my mind's in a whirl. I don't know what to do next. Just wish to be alone.

Well I might be complaining, but I just wish all these don't happen at all.